Dear Future Me


Dear Future Me, 

I hope that today you are the person you always set out to be. I hope you accomplished everything that they said you could never do. How many lives do you change in a day? Do you speak out for what is right, or sit there regretting your silence? I hope you are what I’m not. I hope you speak out with such a voice that everyone around you can hear it even when you aren’t speaking. I want you to have power in the way you speak- giving light into someone’s world filled with darkness. I hope you live as if you are the only one capable of making a difference, and embracing that ability in the best way possible. You don’t need to have your name written in the text of a history book, but you need to live to make your words give life to the ones who thought they didn’t deserve one. When you read this letter, I hope you are somewhere where all of you previous goals can be made accomplishments.

I hope you still remember your past, and pass on your story to those who need to hear it most- to show them that they are not alone. I hope you achieved that brighter, happier life you used to daydream about when you were younger. I hope all of your dreams became your reality, and I hope that eventually your nightmares dissolved into the depths of your past- never haunting you again. I hope that you one day took off the mask that hid the truth. That you broke down the barriers you built, and learned to trust someone- really trust them- somewhere along your journey. I hope that you look in the mirror with a small, true smile and be proud of what you see. I hope that you learned to break through the surface of the water drowning you- anxiety.

I hope that you now see the world from a whole new perspective, and learned to enjoy the sun more than the rain.. Most of all, I hope you learned to speak. To speak in such a voice that must be heard; a voice that embroiders your words onto a heart that needed them most. I hope you are happy, and teach ones who are like the old you to be happy as well. I hope that today you are the person you always set out to be.

Your Past


Captured by Jeni Karay

“If travel teaches us how to see, how come every time all I see is you?”

~Ika Natassa, Antologi Rasa

Captured by Jeni Karay

Warna yang sama bisa tampak sunyi dan riang sekaligus. Langit paham hal-hal semacam itu. Kata-katamu bicara terlalu banyak tapi tidak pernah cukup. Langit selalu cukup dengan cuaca dan pertanyaan-pertanyaan.

Jangan percaya pada ksrtupos dan kamera seorang petualang. Menyelamlah ke ingatannya dan temukan senja selalu basah di sana. Kau hanya boleh jatuh cinta kepada ingatan yang menyerupai langit: rentan dan tidak mudah dikira.

Dia meninggalkanmu agar bisa selalu mengingatmu. Dia akan pulang untuk membuktikan mana yang lebih kuat, langit atau matamu.

~Aan Mansyur

You Are Powerful

Papuan Lady at Humbold Bay Festival, Captured by Jeni Karay

If you want to do anything just about anything, you can. Your life and circumtances, in this current moment,do not define who you are. You are more than your circumtances and you are more than your past.

You are not broken.You are fully capable and functioning woman of beauty and power. Think about what you have marched through. Think of all the times you picked yourself up.

You are worthy. You are woman of worth, as all women are; as all people are.

You are beautiful. Stop looking around,comparing yourself to everyone else. There is no one else like you in the entire world.

You are powerful.


Love Letter (993)

Selong Belanak Beach, Lombok

Can you love me at my worst the way you do at my best?

Can you love me through the difficulty, helping me to trust the human soul once again, encouraging my independence, delighting in my joy and not be threatened?

I will, for you. Can you for me?